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Hebrews 13:5

“Lord why am I here? Why have you called me here and left me? Why have you taken me from home and pulled me here just to cease talking to me?” Things that I have been asking the Lord over and over again for, well the entire time that I have been here? To my surprise I received an answer. He answered me in a way that I wasn't expecting. He came back to me with another question. “Okay, Val, answer this. If you are so upset about leaving him, what is back there for you that is so important? What is back there for you that you are able to find contentment in?” In those simple questions, I found my answer. My answer wasn't what I wanted to hear, my answer was painful. Back home my contentment was found in temporary things, temporary people, and temporary situations. My contentment was worldly. Now, the Lord is calling me to be content here, in Antigua Guatemala, to grow where I am planted. The Lord hasn't failed to keep confirming this to me…He hasn't failed to confirm the many reasons that He wants me here.
Back home there is nothing for me. The land in which I came is dead to me right now. So, this is me officially giving up my struggle. This is me officially letting go of my temporary things, my temporary people, and my temporary situations. This is me officially trusting in what the Lord has and realizing that He its just going to leave me. I have realized, painfully realized, that there is NOTHING back home for me. Even though it may take time I will grow to be okay with that. It is really difficult to finally realize what I was allowing myself to go through. I was a people pleaser. I was the person that people called when they wanted something and I would be okay with that. So with that being said, For the remainder of the 365 days that the Lord has called ,e to, I will grow where I am planted and learn to be content. 

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