What a beautiful thing is is to realize that the Lord of all creation calls me by name. He knows the littlest things bout me, even the things that I don't know. He knows my thoughts before i think them. He knows my actions before I do them. He remembers things that I have forgotten and He knows my future. He knows my flaws. He knows my insecurities. He knows EVERYTHING. He doesn't just know my name but he knows it all. I find a lot of comfort in that but it is also an incredible reminder that I can not hide anything from God. He knows everything that goes on in my heart. He knows the dark areas of my heart and He wants nothing more than for me to allow Him into those dark places. I’ll admit though, I struggle with it sometimes. Dying to self is a daily task, it isn't a once for all thing. It’s waking up everyday and allowing the Lord into every situation. Unfortunately somedays I wake up and part of my heart is hardened towards the Lord. Sometimes I even neglect to give
Luke 9:62 "And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God."
So this verse leads me to ask myself two very simple yet two very needed questions. Question number one, are my hands on the plow? Question 2, if so am I at all looking backwards? So my answer to the first question is so simple and easy that it is almost reflex. Yes, absolutely my hand is on the plow. Unfortunately, on the other hand the second question really depends on the day, but why? Why do I allow my feelings to dictate what I worship. Why do I allow my feelings to control my eyes. Somedays when I lose sight of my identity in the Lord I look back to find my identity in past past, whatever that may be. But then, before I know it, my hands are off of the plow and I am walking towards whatever my eyes are focused on. The Lord calls me to follow Him and never look back. He calls me to walk in the new creation that I was made into when I accepted Him as my Lord and Savior. My old self, the person that I used to be and the person that used to find temporary happiness in sin is de